Intuition & Inspiration

Hey all! I am still alive! Let me tell you, it's been crazy in my little world. First let me begin with saying my iPod Touch pretty much took a dive with the new update they have. That has all my pictures and everything on it so I have no pictures to go with posts. But I felt inspired today so here we go....

I feel like I need to get something off my chest. I can't even begin to tell you how many times through out the past years I have tried to put pen to paper and put into words what I am feeling to this specific thing. When I worked for my dad every summer starting when I was going to be a freshman in high school, I never thought I would see the day when I decided to quit. In fact, I didn't think it was even a possibility. Why should it have been? I was COMFORTABLE. But I took a chance and I left. I started working for a pet boutique in Naperville and really had to step out of my bubble. Whole new job description, not working for family, working with a bunch a girls, working with the general public. It was terrifying. But... I did it and it was a great experience.

I learned a lot from not only working for my dad but in taking that chance and working elsewhere. It was definitely a slap of reality no longer having the comfort of my dad to fall back on. This was real life adulting. I quit there after about 9 or 10 months and moved up to Northern Wisconsin with my mom to the lake house for the summer.

I made a bucket list of everything I wanted to do. At some point in the chaos of moving from my hometown I lost this bucket list but the feelings of adventure and self discovery are still very strong in me. I learned after working at this pet boutique that I was capable or doing more than I thought. I made plans but backed out of them because who would go on a cross country road trip with me? And I certainly couldn't go by myself, right? Me drive on highways? Never had gone far on a highway before so no way could I do that! But then, I started dating Jerry and had to drive 2 hours on a highway and it wasn't a straight shot. I realized I COULD do it on my own.

I've learned a lot since leaving my dad's company and like I've said in past posts, I feel like I've also lost myself. It's so hard to explain but as I said before, 2016 is a year about self discovery. I've always had this instinct to go. It's always been a thought in the background but it's been a constant tug ever since. Recently though, things have gotten complicated at work and I feel like I'm being pushed out the door. Maybe it's a sign from the universe pushing me to quit ignoring this tug and take action. To Live Life. 

I've tried to start this adventure plenty of times. I've been bursting with inspiration and motivation and then the next day I think 'Woah. I can't do that!'. But why the heck not!? I'm so sick of living by societies rules and what's considered good or bad and working that 9-5 job and for what? My life can't possibly be just for working and paying bills, right? Purchasing nonsense things to help fill a void temporarily, no! How am I living by doing this? Working a job I'm not passionate about. Constant routine. Wake up 6am. Walk dog past same cornfield. Drive 30 minutes to work. Work till 5:15. Drive 30 minutes home. Make dinner. Do dishes. Shower. Watch tv for 20 minutes. Fall asleep. Wake up. Take dog out. Go to bed. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. Maybe I am having one of those moments right now where I am so inspired and come tomorrow I'll be embarrassed or scared since I actually tried to put these feelings into words. Maybe it's a way to be held accountable by sharing it. Now that you guys know my "secret" maybe now I have to follow through. I'm not sure. Maybe this has inspired you, maybe not in a self discovery solo road trip but possibly to live your life in the way you want it to be. As it should be. 

Step outside your comfort zone. Have self confidence. Set standards for yourself. Just do you. You only get this life once why spend it conforming to what society tells you to. Delete your social media. Delete your pinterest fitness or beauty boards where there are pictures of bodies and faces that you can't possibly be because you are you. And that's the beauty of it, You are your own beautiful. Stop comparing yourself to these people who are 'living the dream'. You don't see everything with those people. You see the highlights they want you to see. So instead of comparing yourself to them, get out there and live the life you want. Who cares if it isn't rational. Just.... GO. Go for it. 

Alright, sorry, this was a long post. I'm passionate about this stuff, as you can clearly see. I feel better though, having said it. And if you've read this all the way through... thank you. Hopefully you didn't fall asleep. Haha! I'll talk you ya'll later!

Taryn